Unfinished Business

Never did finish my last post- interesting.  Sometimes I lose touch with things.  My mind wanders - for that matter- my heart wanders.

Over the past few months I've let diabetes back into my body - high blood sugars are once again creeping in. I'm now taking steps to get that back under control.. Even to the point of monitoring my blood sugar again.

Bowled in the Colorado State Seniors Open today.  Team event was today, tomorrow is a singles and doubles day.  It has been a bit of a struggle this year.  I've had lots of inconsistency - my best has been a 593 series, my worst, a 419 series....  That is a huge range.  Well, that means there is a lot of room for improvement.

Weather (even though we had 4 " of snow the other day) is back up to a balmy 74 degrees.  I'm looking forward to both golfing and bowling Sunday through Thursday.  It should be an awesome week.

Switching subjects - we bought some great pillows from Sobel - Sahara Nights Series.  I really liked them when we stayed at Paradise Point -- the pillows really were luxuriously wonderful!  It was a great purchase

Another switch... it has been a busy week... cleaned garage, replaced toilet in the guest bathroom after desperately trying to repair the old one.... I just decided to give the effort up and replace it.. I've shut down the sprinkler system, but need to get it blown out.  I think, but not sure, the job is scheduled for the 25th of this month.

Living the Dream

I'm living the dream - almost, the only thing that would bring it closer would be having a fishing pond or lake off the back door patio.  (Lana Babes IS living that dream!)  I guess if I really wanted to, though, I could be totally living my dream - but, and there is always a but- my dream is not the same as Carolyn's.  I think after 50 years of blissful marriage I would know what her ultimate dream would be - I don't!

So I think that would be a great topic for conversation on our upcoming adventure.  If only I can remember to bring the topic up.  I've got a very short term memory when it comes to that type of discussion.

Today I play in a senior-inter-club match at Heritage Eagle Bend.  Played there last year too.  I'm looking forward to the match today.  I've put together two decent rounds of golf in two consecutive days- so, I'm very happy.  I played golf with a gentlemen (Mike) yesterday - probably older than I am- wow did he have a fantastic short game and an excellent long game for that matter.  One of the things he did was have a steady routine prior to each shot.  He never ever lost his cool - he was reflective of each shot and then went on to the next - he carries a 12 handicap whereas mine is 19 (or close to it).

I've completed the - for the most part, because nothing is ever really finished or completed - the Koi pond retaining wall.  I'm now starting on finishing the patio project - sealing and such.  It is a busy and very joyful summer!

May all your days be joyful days! They are what you make of them!

Day After The Birthday Celebration

Thanks to all for the kind birthday wishes! 

So, yesterday was my birthday - golf with friends, calls and text messages from the kids, some notes from Lockheed Martin fellow workers, a great bottle of scotch which I have not yet opened (From a dear friend), frozen margaritas, a house full of relatives and some grandkids, nephews and nieces, followed by an open house today! And, notice the larger text - we all know why that is!

I won't say much about anything, but..... our threesome scored 1 first place, 1 third place, and a closest to the pin!!!!!!  Wow, that is a first.

Carolyn is headed for her Tuesday workout with WTF!  She is such a go-getter.

As for me - nothing witty to say!  At least not today.  I just need to get in the habit of writing again.  Love and hugs to all.... smile at someone you don't know today. Say hi.... give some one a break!  Give someone a reason to smile back at you!  Toodles and Roses!

Life in the 50's and 60's - the Century Before This One

I think my sister Lana wrote this - it actually sounds like her words and it is very well stated.  Since I don't copy and paste in Facebook I took it on myself to copy and paste it here... all except for the copy and paste lines.  Lana - very well stated and oh so true!

I grew up in the very small town of Montezuma IA and went to school at Montezuma in Montezuma IA. Iowa. During a time when most everyone treated each other like Family. We went outside to play, we got dirty.... We bought chips, soda & candy and baseball cards from the corner store. We played "Red Light, Green Light", marbles, jacks, Simon Says, "Hide and Seek", Dodge Ball, Red Rover, Baseball, Softball, and Football. We could ride our bikes to the store, or the park, or down a country road and stay all day. We even swam in the creek and the river when we had the chance. Walked home from school and stayed by ourselves. We ate beans & hot dogs, mac and cheese with peanut butter sandwiches at the school cafeteria. We walked or rode a bike everywhere and never worried about safety. We never thought to lock our windows or doors at night. And we had chores to do around the house. And we helped clean off the table after a meal and ate our meals as a family at a table together. We weren't AFRAID OF ANYTHING, 'cept our parents. If you fell down you would just get back up. We challenged each other everywhere...King of the hill. If someone had a fight, that's what it was...a fight. Kids weren't afraid of fake guns when I grew up. Real guns were just a part of life, and we respected them as well as our parents, our teachers, the American flag, the principal AND God. We said the Pledge of Allegiance and the Lord's Prayer everyday we went to school. We left our houses as soon as we could in the morning and right after school till our neighbors would yell out for their children as a reminder to get in the house for the night. If one kid was called for dinner then we all knew to go home. But definitely when the street lights came on.
We watched our mouths around our elders because we knew if we DISRESPECTED any adult there would be a price to pay and we had manners and respect otherwise someone else's parents put you in your place. I would not trade anything for the childhood we had, for we had enough and we had love and all that made us the adults we are today. "Those were the best of Times"
...t with your town if you're proud that you came from a close knit community and will never forget where you came from!!♡....o. Not everything needs to go back to the way they were, but something's really do. Sometimes simple is just better. Hope everyone has an amazing New Year celebration and may 2017 be your best ever!

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Just happened to think this morning that I have not posted to my blog site for some time... turns out it is about 6 months ago since my last post.  Maybe of been busy playing golf, bowling and, well, lots of other less identifiable things.

I have made some life changes - I now have a part time job!  Yup, I'm working at Saddlerock Golf Course in Aurora - so, I'm sort of a civil servant - although I did discover that golf course in Aurora are self supported and do not use any "tax payer" funding as is provided for the other Aurora Recreational services.  I do enjoy the occasional days of work.

I also stepped down as President of the Fitzsimons Men's Association.  I did that in support of a friend who was forced into an either or situation over a seemingly silly disagreement.  To me it was a mountain made of a mole hill thing.  Never-the-less my friend was pretty much forced into resigning his position on the board.

We have bowling today, couples league, 4 person teams.  My average has improved significantly since the start of this season.  I don't or haven't done as well in the Monday night league, but this Monday I bowled my best series of the year with that league.  Maybe I'm not feeling quite as intimidated any more.  Why the perceived intimidation?  Most of the guys have averages between 190 and 230!  It is not so much intimidation as it is a feeling that I should be doing better.  I think I need to make it more like golf and "compete" against myself to score better!

All I really know is that I am enjoying life and I am a happy person!  Be happy, enjoy all of your moments, we only have so many - !

Not Sure Where to Start

We got our "Urban Farm" - "Square Foot" gardens put in:  https://goo.gl/photos/DvJTWbXgg5PB1aoDA  This is the link just in case you are interested.  Besides this, our beautiful Rhododendrons are in full bloom - I'm not quite sure how to share that picture with you - but, I will figure it out.  Sometimes automation is not so good.  So Google Photos automatically uploads from my phone - but then I don't have the photo on my hard drive.  It seems that what I need to do is share a link when I'd much rather show you a picture here.

It seems I've made a proper mess out of my eggs again.  Damn!  Oh well, they still taste pretty darned good.  Ever since my big computer crash I've been typing manually again.  I did grow to really like Dragon Naturally Speaking.  It spoils one a bit!

I'm now thinking "what is a blog without at least one picture".  I'll fix that!

I took this picture of a picture when we were at the 5 and 10 store in Branson.  I've been looking for a metal model of this airplane for years.  I still haven't found one.  I got a red one for Christmas back in '58 or so.  This airplane is a thing of beauty!

Right now I'm listening to one of Clive Cussler's Oregan Files books.  Makes for a pleasant morning.  

Enjoy your moments I know I am enjoying mine!

When Golf is Cancelled

Darn it -- what's a little rain.  Maybe the course won't allow carts.  I don't use a cart anyway.  Maybe I'll check it out and go play even if league was cancelled.  I'd better check my hourly forecast.  AccuWeather.com  - that's my phone app!  Nope rain ends in 20 minutes, then mostly cloudy the rest of the day.  Doesn't sound all that bad to me.

I'd promised to treat Carolyn to a breakfast burrito at Tin Cup II.  Well it'll have to be LePeeps instead.  She likes LePeeps  (www.lepeep.com)and they do make a really good breakfast -- although last time I was disappointed with their Peasant Potatoes.  I'll have to come up with a new plan for the activities of the day.

I think it will include some weeding and gardening, garage cleaning, bookkeeping, ancestry and photo stuff and a lot of "House".  I didn't think I'd like that show, but I like that show so I'm watching it from the pilot to the end.  I've also picked up on "BOSCH" - a show about a an honest cop that has a true set of values that he actually lives by - whatever the consequences.  Hayfever, the worst in years! OMG I'm sneezing all the time.

I am trying a new remedy called AllerFlex - so far so good but it seems to take a bit longer to kick in than that under the tongue Claritan!

The picture is from Eunice's garden.  Beautiful, delicate poppy plants. The blossoms are huge. The snowball bush in the background is bountiful as well.

I think we are ready to head for breakfast.  Enjoy your moments, I know that we surely enjoy each and every one of ours!!

Family Stuff

It is the season of continuations graduations, parties, weddings, fishing trips and discovery.  For instance I discovered that blogging is more for me than journaling (I guess this is a new adjective because the dictionary doesn't recognize the word - I love the "add to dictionary" function).  There goes another misspelled word!

If you want a reason for liking blogging better - well simply that it is better backed up than my journal!  A computer crash proved that to me.

I've started working on family again.  Making progress by documenting hand written family records and of course, Ancestry.com . I must, of course, watch the membership so I don't get carried away. As I've been going through thousands of photos I've discovered hundreds of wonderful family stories and a few adventures of my own tat I had forgotten.  It has been a blessing to share those memories with family and a blessing to discover some of the not so rich family background, but very interesting to me anyway.  We can't all come from kings and Pharaohs.

My next task with photos is to get them in date order - at least as close as possible.  It is very much like being a detective.  By using context, places lived, relative ages and such one can get a fairly accurate timeline.    Bottom line it keeps me busy and out of Carolyn's hair between rounds of golf!

Have a great day, enjoy your moments.  Happy Birthday John, Steve, and so many others - have awesome moments on your very special day!

On Journaling or Blogging Once Again

It seems I have not really advanced that much on this subject.  I'm not very consistent in either effort.  I think, in the final analysis that both have their pros and cons.  Journaling is definitely the choice if you want to keep your thoughts private.  Blogging is the chance if you feel you have something to contribute socially - even something that you think might be of value to others.  So, I guess I'll continue to do both even if I do them both infrequently.

Well, we've had the two significant snowfalls that I predicted we would have - I told John, a couple of months ago that we had two more big snowfalls before spring really started in earnest.  Unfortunately this last one was big enough that the golf courses are taking awhile to recover - tree damage cleanup and such - so, I'm letting my beard and hair grow until I get back out on the golf course again.

I've decided to join several leagues this year and a senior inter-club group.  Bottom line I hope to play competitive (for the fun of it) golf on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays.  That's a lot of golf, but it should be a lot of fun.  Hey, maybe I should put a link here to Google Photos of some of the Myrtle Beach outings!  We did play some really beautiful and challenging courses there.

Lots of birthdays this month - so, it is a month of reflection and celebration.  I'm learning a bit of both by going through some 28,000 photos and cataloging them and putting them in albums and such.  Google+ Photos is helping me do that.  I've got so much duplication due to moving files around and backing them up at different times that it really is a chore - but also very reflective.  I'm enjoying and being challenged almost every moment!

To all my friends out there - this project has also given me the opportunity to think about and in some cases prompted me to make renewed contact - even if just through the social media.

Be joyful, enjoy all your moments and have a truly awesome day!

Journal or Blog or Both - From an Absentee of 5 Months

Interesting.  I'm reading a new book 52 Small Changes for the Mind .  So, it has started me journaling.  Journaling is much different than blogging - much.  One is for public consumption, maybe because I think I have something of value to offer - whereas journaling is private, totally private and for reflecting.  It is, at least for me, a bit of a personal discovery.

Person of Interest is an excellent show.  Makes one think about the benefits and, well, drawbacks of technology and government "oversight".

I'm golfing better!  Carolyn and I are bowling!

Lesson 4 - Practice, Practice, Practice - but, Purposeful Practice!

Did a lot of chipping today. This is going to be the most improved part of my game!  Purposeful practice with a passion! I tend to be too mechanical during one on one.  I think it is the "Kevin" effect.  Even at 70 one tries to please their instructor. WTF for reals!  I'm paying him! I got to learn to please myself and build on the clues that he gives me.    I am learning to hit draws an finds and I'm getting a lot better at playing the course not just swinging the club and hoping to get down in a reasonable number of strokes.  I did play 9 holes with only a 7 iron today - the purpose of the exercise was to really get to know the club and what I could do with it!  A very interesting experience, but only when I started to use my noggin'!

On number 10 I didn't touch the fairway the first two shots - with a freakin' 7 iron.  I know why - I still made a 6. 2 hook shoots 2 punch shots and 2 "putts".  On 11 - Nasty hook off the tee - experimented with a lob shot using the 7 iron - interesting but very ineffective (I did better the second time I tried that - on number 15.  A chip shot and a putt for a 5.  Number 12 - another nasty hook off the tee - followed by two low punch shots and 2 putts for a 5.  So I'm 16 after three hours. Number 13 - straight down th middle - on in two and two putts for a 4 - yup, a par!. (20)  Number 14 pushed the tee shot to the right, chipped on and 2 putt for a 4 (24).  Number 15, a par 5 - I finally started thinking - challenging myself to think and to choose a shot, not just swing the club.  A draw off the tee - successful.  A fade down the middle, successful.  I fade just short of the green successful, 1 Chip and 2 putts for a 6 (30). Number 16 is a slight dog leg to the left - teed off with a draw shot - followed by a straight shot, a chip and 2 putts for a 5 - (35).  Number 17 a slight draw right down the middle, a straight shot, a punch, a chip, and putt for a 5 - 40!  Number 18 - on in 4 and 2 putts for a 6 - for a 46 and all I had was a 7 iron. What did I learn?

1. Use my head, survey the landscape, pick a target, choose a shot, make two practice swings - put the ball in the way - hit the ground!
2. Celebrate the good shots and learn from the shot that wasn't quite so good!
3. Move on to the next shot!
4. Learn how to use my clubs
5. Its good to be in the fairway most of the time!

Be in the moment - but, that is the way to be all the time!  Have a great day!

Lesson 2 - Practice time! On The Way to A More Consistent and Better Round of Golf!

Today was a practice day.  The biggest lesson I learned is that practice needs to be real - not just putting, chipping, swing clubs.  It needs to be as real as the round of golf and the situatios on the golf course.  On the putting green - use my marker, my alignment, my stroke!  On my follow through - do not lose balance - I am losing balance at this time and kinda falling backwards! I think it is mostly because I'm trying to "finish high" -

I've been given a new "practice" if follow through that should help this.  So, I need to play this way!  I need to limit my follow through - I can practice this, and I can practice my chipping at home - !

I see my mental game improving.  I focus better from shot to shot!  I am starting to "play the course" rather than just swinging at a ball!

Golf is such a great game. A really great game.  8 lessons to go!  I'm so looking forward to each day I get to play golf!  Next up Coyote Creek.... Woohoo!

Day 1 - Golf With Kevin Carlson

So, day one 1 (Friday the 2nd) was an interesting/introductory getting to know your game day.  We played 9 holes.  I was very nervous the first three and had a double, a triple, and a double bogey in that order.  Kevin asked questions and I looked at some excuses... like I always start of slow, etc.  That's the bad news, the good news is I ended up with a 42 on the back 9 of Fitz - best I've done this year.  I birdied both par 5's and on of the par 4's.  My concentration improved.  Well, for me, 80 % of the game is between my ears.

Kevin had an interesting way of tracking my game... scoring zones, shots to hole out within the scoring zone, putts made or missed from 4'.  I'm going to go practice tomorrow.  I've got a neat practice card and I'm going to use it.  I'm serious about improving my game!  I LOVE IT!  Gotta get some card stock to print some of the special score cards and practice plans!  Hey, have a great weekend.  Be in the moment - really important on the golf course.  Let go of the last shot - good or bad!

Golf - I Love It (!

I think I love the game because it is all about individual self-improvement.  I've tried over the past few years to do just that - shooting in the 110-120 several years back to shooting in the high 80's to low 90's  and the occasional high 90's the past couple of years.  I think it is time to take the next step.  I'd like to shoot my age before I hit 75, that gives me five years!  No sweat.

To that end I'm going to take some serious lessons over the next 12 weeks.  I'm really looking forward to it.  I believe that I am a good golfer.  I think I can be an excellent golfer. I've signed on with Kevin Carlson (Fitzsimons club Pro).  I start tomorrow morning.  I had to rearrange some personal training, but along with WTF  (who I think has helped improve my game) some great golf lessons should really help.  I think Kevin will help me with better practice and better course management.  These are a couple of things I definitely need to improve - besides better focus and consistency! Kevin  ( kevincarlsongolf.com ) "guarantees" a 10 stroke improvement - wow - that would put me in the high 70's to mid 80's on a more consistent basis.    I'm there. 

It is important for me to "be in the moment" and that is where I am!

Had my first ever eagle the other day.  The 1st whole at Green Valley Ranch Golf Club - a par 4.  What a great feeling!.  I know I can look forward to many more pars and even more birdies.  Wahoo.  I'm really psyched!

Windows 10 - A-

Well, we got in on the Windows 10 Upgrade. It is faster than any f the previous releases - leaps and bounds faster. The download and install were easier. So far I've only got one problem -- My ASUS Smart Gesture does not work and I have a couple of missing "dll"s. I've been working on the Smart Gesture issue for a couple of days and I've had nothing but frustration. When you want to be self reliant, "who yah gonna call?" The truth is I've done some web searches but I've made no phone calls so far. I really miss the ability just to scroll down or up the page or magnify from my Touchpad. A few more days of this will drive me nuts. Other than that, so far, so good! Enjoy your moments - each and every one of them! Have a great day.

Afternote:  7:54AM - I got it fixed.  Went to ASUS.com . They have a new driver for Windows 10.  Uninstalled the old one, installed the new app and driver - works like a charm... Only one issue left - Screen background doesn't always stay on.

Cooking and Other Stuff

I think I've discovered yet another joy - cooking.  Carolyn and I are enjoying exploring new recipes and new foods.  We are very successful at some and not so successful at others  but at least we are exploring the art of seasoning and enjoying new tastes.

I've been enjoying all the "chef" shows for the last couple of years and even trying out some of the dishes these "master chefs" cook.  (I also still love chocolate and merlot! - so we try and work that into some of our recipes.)

But, most importantly cooking is fun -- even better is the eating of what you have given so much of yourself in cooking!  Even better yet is when someone says "that was great, got any more?"!  I don't know why I chose this subject today, perhaps because I'm watching a cooking show right now.    Master chefs on the rim of the Grand Canyon.

On another note, my sister Sharon called me today and wished me a happy birthday!  We all get  busy and it is so nice to be remembered on these special occasions.

We played golf today at Saddleback in Firestone.  What a beautiful morning!  I shot an 89 - I was happy with that.  Phone is ringing.  I don't answer the phone (my land line) - I don't even know why we have it any more.  I think I'll talk to Carolyn again and see if we can't get rid of it.  There are just way too many "crap" calls!  Calls that waste time and energy and just wish you didn't have a phone of any kind.  CAROLYN!!!!!!!

Enjoying a glass of Merlot - now comes the test - does it lead to a gout attack.  I do love my wine - and I hope it doesn't. I'll know in less than 24 hours.  I'd love some nuts right now!  (maybe it is the salt I crave!)  To all my friends out there - enjoy your moments, each one of them is special!

2 Under Par (At most courses - and in life)

Yes it is a cryptic title, but I'm sure you can figure it out.  I've had the most wonderful birthday celebration ever.  Carolyn and I went to the Fresh Fish Company for dinner on the 10th.  That was my actual birthday - the 10th.  But, Saturday turned out to be the very very special day.  The kids planned it all and had the house thoughtfully decorated.

The day started with a hike through Castlewood Canyon - accompanied by Wendfal.  It was a great 1 hour and 44 minute 5.7 mile hike.  The falls were beautiful -and it was the perfect time of day to do the hike.  I got home about 10:30 A.M. and we partied until about 5:30 P.M.  I knew the kids were planning something because they had asked me to keep the 11th of July open.  But this was special.  The guests came in several waves -- and there were lots of guests.  Each brought a bottle of wine, but more importantly they brought themselves and we were able to share the joy, the company, the happiness, the family, the friends, the kids, the grandkids, the food the drink and the laughter.

All our kids were here - Heather, Chad, Kindle and Jeremiah and their spouses - Eric, Wendfal, Drew, and Xavier - and their kids Autumn (Wolfgang had to work), Megan, Hailey, Trenton and Aubrey (Brooke is in Missouri establishing her Missouri residency), Bishop and Kairi, Oscar Henry Morell, Tyler -- Great friends Rosana and Sean all the way from Laramie (a big surprise), Eric and Erica, John and Eunice, Kevin and Sharon, Michelle and her friend Lauren and the biggest surprise of all Joe and Sherry (20 years since we've seen them in person - I cried), neighbors Vicki and Linda.  The Martinez side of our family - Rita, Gail, Kameko and Angel, Suzy, Mary Anne, Susan, Jerry and Esther, Marc and Julie, Jennifer - Lauren and Heather (Jeff sent his wishes), Rebecca, and most importantly my lovely lady Carolyn.... I see most of these folks every day and they've kept this secret for 5 or 6 weeks.  I was even surprised and Fitz golf course on league Wednesday with best wishes from the Tin Cup II crew and the members of our league.  (Oh and there was the little dog Harvey!) There were also the many Facebook birthday wishes  - from class of '63 classmates and a few of my very special friends from my days at Lockheed Martin... especially my "blue bottle" pal Sherri!  I got calls or cards from my brother (better catch that refrigerator), and sisters...  thank you all!  (If I've omitted any names, well, I've got an excuse - three Bloody Mary's and well, you know!)  And for those of you who couldn't make it - I missed you and let it be known you missed an awesome party!

We had a great time and it is a birthday I will always remember with great joy and happiness in my heart.  Thank you all so very much for being a part of my life --  believe me I've enjoyed "each and every moment".  I love you all! 

And if you haven't figured out the title yet - well, give it time you will - hint, I love to play golf!

Naturally Speaking

Here goes nothing! Purchased Dragon NaturallySpeaking.  I have tried in the past but found it in a very slow! However this new package works really really good. I might walk more often because you do the typing typing for me! I do have to learn to use the package a little bit better as I see the double word for typing their.

We had a lot of rain here in Colorado. Almost 26 inches the last 30 days I think that's what we had in the last two years put together! The law is looking really good obviously. Not really sure that the punctuation once and you're not.

Were having a tree service over to check all the trees in the backyard and the front yard. Some of these trees were damaged by the storm so just need to prune. Hope to get that estimate next few days!

Press Lake Camp.... May 24 - Sunday - 2015

Our first full fishing day in camp.  We had Walleye last night and are having it again tonight.  Delicious.  Today I caught a 22.25" walleye and returned it to the water.  Tanner caught a 21.5" walleye and returned it - he is only 9 and 1/2 years old.  Totally on his own!!!!!

I also caught a very nice 19" smallmouth bass... catch and release - this time of year the only ones you can keep are under 13" - it is spawning season.

The fishing has been great and the weather fantastic - though a little warm.

I learned to play a new Dominoes game - Chicken Foot.  It really is a lot of fun.!

I wish I had some photos, but I didn't bring the camera.  I guess I should at last take my phone so I can capture any great moments - like Tanner's big catch.

I do have some photos of Kakabecka Falls -- we stopped there on the way to Press Lake.  It was a more impressive water falls than I expected!

Awesome eh?!  Enjoy your moments.  Live, Laugh, Love, Be happy and have "an open heart"!!!!

Canada 2015

It is a new day...  New days are good.  I'm in Iowa getting ready for the annual trek to Canada for some Walleye fishing.  I love catching those nice smallmouth bass too.  The occasional very nice northern isn't bad either.

This year going up with Lana and Jack, Glen and Tanner.  It should be loads of fun.

Yah know, I don't write much of late.  I"m not sure why that is. 

Centennial - has had 14 straight days with rain, already over 14" this year.  In Iowa - they've had a lot of rain too.  The lakes, rivers, and ponds are all full up.  The farmer's fields look great.  The rain's have been the non-flooding kind.  Slow enough that the ground can soak it up before a new rain comes.  It has been the same in Colorado. (note to self:  I'm hungry!)

I think I'll go practice my casting flips.  On to bowling - Carolyn and I are joining a "senior" couples league in the fall.  We picked out our new equipment - balls, bags, shoes and such and are looking forward to some practice lines during the summer.  It would be nice to get or averages over 100.  It has been some 30 years since we've done any "regular" bowling.  We practiced three lines the other day and really enjoyed it.

Well, enough -- enjoy your moments, each and every one of them!  That's what life is all about!

Be Happy

I know that to say "be happy" can seem like a very trite phrase.  What does it really mean?  Was it Bobby McFerrin's version (Bobby McFerrin - Don't Worry Be Happy youtube.com
) .  Or is it as stated in "The Untethered Soul" by Michael A. Singer.  I think Bobby hit the nail on the head when he wrote that very happy song.  I also think the Michael Singer has a lot to tell us in his book - Chapter 15 really brings home the value of happiness and the gripping realities of being committed to the decision - and, it really is just that, a simple decision.  But beware, it is not a decision to take lightly because it is a decision to be happy, no matter what!

We are bombarded daily with literally hundreds of things that can ding and bang away at that shield of happiness - it is the way we handle those bombardments that can truly lead to joy and full-time happiness.  I really thank Wendfal and Carolyn for sharing the book with me.  I strongly recommend you read or listen to it.  It is available on "Audible" which is an Amazon product.  (I seem to be an Amazon addict.) 

I finally got to play a round of golf yesterday.  It was the first time this year!  Played well too.  What a beautiful day and so very nice to get out and about. 

"Its a Wonderful Life" - live it in happiness!  Each and every moment of it!

Consistency

Well, I can only say one thing for sure - "I'm consistently inconsistent!"  I guess this is a case where consistency isn't necessarily a good thing. Of course I'm referring to the frequency of posting new blogs.  There was I time when I said I would do it every day - we all know that hasn't happened and isn't likely to happen in the future.  But, that isn't all bad because if I tried to write something every day, it would probably be a bunch of drivel.  Some of it still is drivel - but every once in awhile I do make a good point or two. I figure that is enough on the subject, on to other matters that matter.

Like a letter we got from a friend in Germany!  Barbara, thanks for writing.  If you do happen to read this your response will be on the way soon (meaning in the next day or two).  That is another thing I'm "inconsistent" about - getting back to folks - but, it will happen.  We really enjoyed your letter.

We started our "spring cleaning" today.  Yah, I know it isn't spring but we do have a lot of cleaning and consolidating to do.  It seems no matter how much stuff we give to Goodwill or ARC or LUPUS or whatever charity, there is always more stuff to give the next time!  We already have one box ready for their next call!

Speaking of spring - I really need to get out on the golf course - here's hoping we get some snow melt - well, more snow melt in the next few days.  I really do need to get outside!

So, have a great day - yesterday is gone, tomorrow isn't here yet - all you really have is right now - so, be in the now!  It really is the only time that counts!

I Just Don't KNow!

Other Matters

Here we are on the 7th day of 2015.  Other matters are already coming up.  For me, other matters are things like family difficulties, friendship difficulties, poor weather - can't play golf, getting the snow blower started - thanks to a clue from my neighbor I finally did- but now there is no snow!  Since some of these are very private I won't share, but leave it at we are off to a roaring start for 2015.  So, why do I choose today to write about this.

Well, a sister called, a son helped and now I have questions, but they are not urgent or significant enough to worry about. So, I'll probably talk about a few other things - like procrastination.  Why is it that there are some things that I procrastinate about and other things I do right away.  I've pondered this and determined it has nothing to do with the ease of the task or the discomfort of doing the task.  It seems to be deeper and on a more "personal" level.  Like I need to talk to my sons about a couple of things ..  but I don't want to hurt them by telling them! So, what do I do - my gut says I need to say something - I need to follow my gut.

Damn, I so want to play some golf - I wonder If I will be asked back to Myrtle Beach - I wonder if I will go if I am asked????  Wow, there is something to ponder! 

Got a trip coming up I haven't cancelled.  Got something to talk to Carolyn about. Oh, so much on my mind.  Hey I figured out how to wire some candles that were battery operated and made them hard wired.  We went through way too many batteries.  I've been trying to post a picture to Facebook, couldn't do it for some stupid reason, so posting it here:  Thank you Morell's!

The set up for the timer!

The Picture - thanks for the Vegan Healthy Snacks DKO!

Accumulation

Ever notice how certain areas of the house just seem to accumulate stuff.  It can be a closet, a room, a desk drawer, a cupboard, a corner of a room, the garage, under the porch in the boat in the winter... so many places sooooo much stuff!

It doesn't seem to make any difference how much "stuff" you give to Goodwill, ARC, LUPUS charities - whatever - there's still stuff put in all those different places.  We put away the indoor Christmas "stuff" today.  I swear it takes up twice as much shelf space as it did last year!

What brought this blog subject up?  Well, I went to the kitchen desk to find a special sticker for our calendar - I just put the stickers away earlier today -- I had to empty the whole darned drawer to find the stickers I just put away this morning.  What is with that?  The picture to the left has all the contents of the sticker drawer.  There's a lot more than stickers and looking at this stack I don't see the stickers I want.  I got the drawer fully emptied and finally - there they were, stuck way in the back about to fall over the back into the drawer below.  I did end up taking almost everything out of the drawer.  I just left the one thing you see below.  You never now when you'll need the floor outlet cover plug again and what better place to stick it than in the sticker drawer!  Oops I see I left a tube of useless glue in the back of the shelf.

 I'm convinced that there's a reason we do this, but I sure as heck can't figure it out.  It will probably take us a couple of hours to go through all the stuff I took out of the drawer and decide just what should be put back in the drawer.  The project should make for some very interesting conversation.

The next picture is one of the center drawer - really a rather useless drawer because it is only about one and one-half inches deep.  When you shut the drawer, everything tends to drift toward the back leaving empty space up front for more stuff..  Yet another interesting project.  Hey there's my 12' foot tape!  I wondered where that darned thing went to.  And is that a razor blade.  I was looking for one of those the other day!  And this is just two freakin' drawers in the kitchen desk - just imagine the other 3990 square feet of the house and its contents!

Have a great day.  Do you know where all your "stuff" is?

Plastic Forks and Other Misdeameanors

To write about it or not write about it!  I know Shakespeare said it first - but I use a similar phrase many times in a year.  Only the second day of the year and I've added an item to the don't list - it is a list I keep on the side of my refrigerator near my Keurig.   More later - I promise (unless I forget).

Had the drive and walks shoveled by 6:45AM.  We had 6 to 8" of the very soft white stuff last night.  Made the trees look extra beautiful this morning.  The drive to personal training was fantastical and wonderful. After personal training we want shopping at Costco.

First staples of the year!  We purchased mostly fruit and veggies.  We are watching the movie Charade  I'm not sure why I mention this.  It is just that I forgot why I even started writing this brief monologue. Oh, yah, plastic forks - well I was silently informed this morning that certain parties do not appreciate a plastic fork for breakfast.  Oops.  I do think I understand though - it really isn't easy to cut a piece of bacon with a plastic fork.  So there it is, the faux pas had to go on the don't do it again list.

We did get about 75% done with putting away the indoor Christmas decorations.  Nice way to end the week - time for a Malbec or a scotch - hmmmmmmmmmm!

Happy New Year - 2015

We went to bed early last night - December 31st. It as been a wonderful day to day - starting with sleeping in this morning.

We started taking down Christmas decorations earlier today.  That is a two or three day project.  Carolyn went to the Rec Center this morning after breakfast. 

I'm not making any New Year's resolutions.  Haven't done so for many years.  I'm not sure exactly why - just doesn't seem they are needed.  We had a wonderful 2014 - without any resolutions-there were also a few losses:

• Bishop Fahlenkamp was born January 7th
• We continued our personal training with Wendfal
• Trips to Big Cedar an Columbia in Missouri
• Brooke Dearman graduated from high school
• Oscar Morrel was born on July4th
• Trip to Canada with Carolyn and the Taylors and others including Rosana and Sean
• Several trips to Aspen - stayed at the Innsbrook - nice digs nice town
• Visit from mom, Lana and Jack - she got to see all of the kids and most of the grandkids and at least one grandchild while she was her with them
• Spent a month at Jacque and Howard's - visited mom and watched lots of Westerns with her
• A visit from Mike and Vicki later in the year - a treat because they hadn't been here for many years
• Took Xavier and Bishop to Iowa to see mom
• Went back to Iowa - quick trip to celebrate Mom's 91st birthday -it was the last time I saw her
• Brooke started college at the University of Missouri (go Tigers) 
• mom passed away - .....
• We celebrated Bishop's first birthday - Early
• We spent Christmas day with Chad and Wendfal's family
• We got Christmas shopping done early - no small task
• I got a great weather station for Christmas
• I played a round of golf with our club pro - 
• I started playing golf with Mil and Dick again
• Carolyn and I have discovered Paleo - and we are having fun cooking and trying new dishes
• I sold my pick up ... we are trying to get by with one vehicle for awhile
• We paid off Rosie - That's the Elantra
• Added special drawers to the kitchen cabinets - a place for everything and everything (usually) in its place
• I improved my golf game
• Einshtallen ... well I support Carolyn in this
• We gave one of Mom's teddy bears to each of our children and grand-children and made a few other folks happy as well...
• Helped the kids  -- in one way or another
• Found out we had severe roof damage from the Sept 29th hail storm of the year
• Kairi moved to Wyoming
• We made a trip to Wyoming to pick up Kairi for post Christmas events
• Tried to get the snow blower started - damn - no success and it was a very snowy January 1st - 2015

Yah, It has been awhile!

I think my mom (like's to be called Mum - God only knows why), once told me that "unless you have something important to say, keep your mouth shut."  That along with "if you can't say something nice don't say anything at all!"  Well, I just haven't had anything to say be it nice, important, or whatever.

For some reason I fell the need to write and I do have the right to write it if I so choose.

View Coming Down from Top of Hunter's Trail

Fall is in the air.  Carolyn and I took a couple of trips to Aspen.  We stay at a great place.  I hate to name the place because it may get so popular we won't be able to book it anymore - or am I just dreaming.When we wer last there the Aspen were just starting to change.  We had a beautiful hike up (and down) Hunter's Trail.  I should have worn better shoes.  On the way back we stopped at a bridge over looking th roaring fork.  I wish I had my fishing pole.  There, just below me in a quite pool was a beautiful trout.  It would have been fun to catch and release.

I think I'm going to sell my pickup.  Carolyn and I are thinking of downsizing to one vehicle.  It will likely be an SUV that we can still use to tow the boat and still be very comfortable on long hauls.  We still drive to Canada, Iowa, and Missouri from time to time.  Brooke is a Mizzou Tiger now - so I imagine we'll drop by and see her when we had for Big Cedar.

We sat for Kindle an Drew the other night.  That baby Oscar has a healthy set of lungs - but, when he's mellow he is a "very mellow fellow".  He takes after his dad that way. I got to figure out how to get all my photos in OneDrive One Cloud or something.  I've got a couple in my phone Gallery that I would like to share in this post.  I'll figure that out sometime today - really! (Hey, I figured it out!)

 Carolyn and I have embarked on yet another adventure.  We are eating Paleo and loving cooking the new and varied recipies together.  This morning we had braised greens, cinamon broiled grapefruit, and English Bangers.  The grapefruit was awesome.  I learned a lesson on braising greens.  Things like Kale need to be started ahead of things like spinach.  We could also add more seasoning than we do.  But it is som much fun cooking with Carolyn.  Need I say more.  I don't think so!

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Soon to be Another Much More Talented Blogger Than I!

Mike and Vicki are visiting!  I would say "about time" but that wouldn't be nice! We are so glad they have been able to spend this time with us. 

Michael is a very observant guy.  He looked out our back window and saw a nesting dove.  I wondered why (we walked by the nest 100 times) we never noticed her or her eggs before.  Of course Vicky already knew that doves nest in the lowest branches of trees.  So, there you go. 

We visited much of the family this week - celebrated births, weddings, and family.  Life is good!

We also downed a few bottles of wine - a couple from a winery in Rapid City - Firehouse.  It was very, very good. And, probably, another bottle or two this evening.

I really don't have anything intelligent to say this evening - well I rarely do say anything intelligent, but I say it anyway.

Oscar and Bishop - welcome to our world.  Xavier, welcome to the family.  Michael and Vicky we are so very glad you came!  Love to all!

The Personal Challenge

From time to time I lose track of what I want out of life - my goals, my values-even my principles.  I think it is time to re-evaluate and gone on with quality and stop making excuses.  I'm about 18 lbs over weight, some would say 28lbs.  My golf game has gone south - I mean way south. 

Today at personal training I was reminded of these things.  How can WTF help me if I don't even know for sure what it is that I want.  so I need to do things that help me focus better on what it is I want.  (I know I waste a lot of time playing games - but, I do enjoy it - and, what is wrong with enjoying.)  The other day Carolyn challenged me to go fishing more often - there's no reason why I shouldn't!  I'm too lazy sometimes. 

So the "Personal Challenge" is to follow up on some of the suggestions that were made to me today by Wendfal.  Writing those things down adds significance - so, I will write them down.

• Work with Carolyn and coordinate a meal plan for the next 4 days.  Send the plan to Wendfal.
• Set up my Total Gym as soon as we have the exercise room back.  Set up regular work outs.
• Renew my goal to weigh 165 lbs.  That means losing 20 lbs.  That means eating correctly and exercising more.
• Get my golf game back to the high 80's, low 90's - that means playing more than once a week and/or practicing from time to time at Murphy Creek facility - it isn't that far.
• Go fishing at least once a week - early morning!  Get the boat ready the evening before.
• Go to Mirror Lake for a day or two - even if it means getting a personal tent.
• Enjoy our patio.
• Get the dead Aspens taken care of.
• Finish a budget that meets Carolyn's needs!
• Meditate at least once a day!
• Consider taking up yoga
• Stretch and roll out frequently

Some of these are not specific enough.  I know that and I know that I need to make them more specific.  I can do it!  I will do it!  It is done!

Wow... I've not written since Feb 12 What is with that? or in mondern internet lingo "WTF"?

Who knows - so today is a typical Monday - recycle day (every other week).  First thing this morning was taking out the recycle and the trash.  Recycle bins are much fuller than the trash bins.  That is a good thing..

Second thing was making sure the sprinklers are properly aligned.  I obviously have a bit of work to do there yet.  Then I ran a drip line to the Bird Bath - who knows if that'll keep water in the thing or not, but I thought it was at least worth a try.  Next go out and check the drip lines, they are running right now.Filling the bird bath worked too good - put a limiter in the line and all is well!  All drip lines are good.

So third thing (at least this morning) is gaming and a cup of coffee! To mix or not to mix that is the question here... a little Bailey's that is!  This morning, I'm opting for some Bailey's!  And a little BP! Also multi-tasking a bit - planning the day and waiting for breakfast!

Took a short break from gaming to put a sticker on the Calendar. Rainbow Heart... Nice!  Check email.  Deciding whether to go to personal training tomorrow or not.  Somewhere in here I also watched about 15 minutes of Dr. Jin.

Well, it is now 8:33 AM - guess I'd better get some work done, starting with book keeping! 9AM.

Interval training for 60 minutes.  Then downstairs to relax a bit before taking the truck in for an oil change! Documented on My Fitness Pal. And, of course, more gaming and a morning snack.

So it is about 12:15 - Oil change is done, all fluids and filters checked and A-OK.  I like Keller Automotive.  Now it is back home.  Fixed the weed sprayer, sprayed weeds. Now to relax with Dr. Jin and a bit more gaming and blogging.  (getting hungry too!)

Next day:  Well, I'm obviously still in a funk!  I didn't finish this post.  Well, that would be a typical day.  Hope you enjoyed yesterday, I did.  It certainly had its moments!

On Being Wistful!

Wistful, quite a word! I'm not even 100% sure what it means... maybe longing or thinking back fondly close.  Just for kicks I think I'll look it up in a hard cover Webster's (yes, they still exist)! Webster says it is "showing or expressing vague feelings."  Well, that describes where I'm at right now - my feelings are vague, almost unreachable, definitely not very describable.  Though that is exactly what I'm doing right now.

I found another one of Mom's sayings or poems scratched on a small piece of paper:
Some one loves me,
Guess who,
It is me.....
    Yvonne Fahlenkamp

Maybe she made that up, maybe she didn't - but I do know it is something that just came into her mind and she had to write it down.  I'm not sure she ever shared it with anyone.  I do know that she does sometimes share her poetry by reading it out loud.  She has done so at church circles and past family reunions.  

I've never been in a place that makes me feel so wistful!  It is organized clutter.  There is a real sense of pride and a sense that Mom took care to place everything in just the right place for just the right purpose.  Right down to the smallest of nick-knacks.  As for me, I tend to have disorganized clutter and every time I try to do something about it... well, nothing happens, it just stays disorganized.

Well, it is time to get busy again and that is just what I'm going to do! I'll finish this later.

About an hour has passed. So, this is later and I'm gonna finish this entry.  I've gone from being "wistful" to being "mildly irritated" so it is probably a good time.  For what you ask, to finish this blog entry of course!  Anyway, still a lot of day ahead of me and a ton of things to take care of.  The most important thing is that I'm making significant progress. Kinda like GE used to say... Progress Is Our Most Important Product... or something of that nature.  Have a great day, enjoy your moments!

The Book of Mom - Maybe?

Just a Few of The Many nick-Knacks!

I'm planning my day.  I ran across my mother's poetry the other day whilst cleaning the house.  I've made a copy and of course returned the originals to their proper place.  I found some beautiful and pretty self-revealing poems.  I'll figure out a way to share with her children and grandchildren at some point.  Maybe in something called "The Book of Mom". 

I'm going to start cleaning the basement today - lots of dead bugs to vacuum up!  I'll also see what cleaning supplies are needed and take care of that.  I've started dusting upstairs -very carefully because there are literally hundreds of nick-Knacks! As I do this I visualize the happiness that was in the house and that I can still feel.  I wonder what joyous occasions and sad were held here.  I remember some of the Christmases in the basement - and Thanksgiving Dinners that mom and dad hosted while they were still able.

I remember the laughter, the tears, the conversation of mom and dad's children, spouses, and grand children! 

Dad Liked Taking the Pictures!!

I also think a wee bit about the things that we struggled through as family - a night I flew here from Colorado to help with brother Lew and the trip to the hospital the morning after.   I remember being here with Chad and Wendfal and our grand daughter Autumn and grandson Wolfgang.  I recall making a trip to one of Lew's holiday dinners with Carolyn, Jeremiah, Rosana and baby Kairi.  There was so much more - but these are the moments that come to mind this morning.

I do remember more the "Story House" - that is the last Montezuma house that I really lived in with the family - that's where we lived when LJ was born. The picture shows me and all my siblings except for sister Sharon.  LJ is the little clown in the lower left.  I think the dogs name was Tina Von Dockleheim or something like that!  I don't remember what Mom and Jacque-lee were discussing, but it must have been pretty interesting!

I'm sure today will bring lots and lots of memories and precious moments!  Make sure to enjoy your moments, each and every one of them!

Anonymous Comments - Hey, It Is Okay

I had a comment from a blog reader a few days ago, more like a question.  The individual asked "what inspires you to write?  How do you get started?"  The answer, for me, is quite simple.  I don't think about it.  There have been many times when I've said I'll do this every day.  That isn't going to happen and perhaps it shouldn't happen.  I think I write when something inside me says "you've got to get some thoughts down in black and white!"  So, I turn to this and write.  Carolyn journals every day.  They are her personal thoughts and whatever - I say whatever because she has and probably never will share those thoughts with me or anyone else.  I think for her it is a matter of making "meaning" of things in her life.  Interesting that I have never asked her about that.  Maybe I think it is or would be an invasion of her privacy.

For me - when I write- it is kind of a release.  It is an opportunity to let go of something that needs letting go of.  It is a matter of sharing my thoughts, feelings, emotions in such a way that maybe someone else - even perfect strangers - may note or gain something that triggers a growth or longing or sense of peace or inquisitiveness somewhere in the depths of their heart and mind. Perhaps that is a bit "ostentatious" or "grandiose" but it is what flows from my mind to my fingertips to the written page.

For some reason I've been thinking a lot about ancestry lately.  Jack helped that a bit as he has traced his family back to BC - yes, BC.  Well, I'm not quite sure that is the reason I've become interested again.  I think it is more that when I see the names and dates it takes my very vivid imagination back to scenes of those days and gives me a greater sense of who I am and what my family has contributed to the gift of "being alive" and to what makes me, me! 

I feel, rather think that I'm at a point in my life where being "secretive" and having "secrets" is kinda stupid!  It isn't that there is any secret that I have that would be a revelation to anyone else.  It is just that there are those thoughts and feelings and emotions that have for some reason or another remained untold.  I'm not sure whether it is to protect me or to protect someone else.  I have this obsession about closed doors, drawers, containers and such.  It drives me a bit nuts when someone leaves a door or drawer ajar.  Perhaps there is a relationship to that and holding things tight to one's self.  A form of protection.  If the drawer is open something will be revealed that shouldn't be revealed.  Or perhaps there is no relationship at all and  its just if there is a door and it isn't fully open, it should be tightly and fully shut.... that is just the way of things.  But, I do think that somewhere there is a correlation!

Ah well, today is not going to be "just another day".  It is a day where I will have adventures of the soul and the mind.  My thoughts will, perhaps, take my places I've never been before and stir things up that may or may not be totally pleasant - but will always be a way of healing and getting more of a sense of what life means to me and to those who are and have been a part of my life.  Not necessarily re-living moments and times, but making whole the moments that I share and learn from right now.

Carolyn - I miss you and plan to talk with you today! You are indeed, the light of my life!

Moments to Enjoy - a Visit With Mum

I read a book - studied really - entitled "the 36 Hour Day".  While the book is helpful in understanding how to deal with and care for a person with Alzheimer's and related Dementias, it can in know way relate what it is to really experience dealing with that care. More importantly it is difficult for anyone to put into words how one reacts to the varied situations that arise. Ggaod Bless Jack and Lana for what they have done and what they are doing.  I thank them so much for bringing Mum (that is what she likes to be called, though I still call her Mom) to visit with us and see her Colorado grandchildren and great grandchildren.

Mom is so "in the moment" of things - but the moments need to be constantly repeated.  At times there is clearly lucidity for extended periods of time... minutes even!  She and Carolyn - who I know is patient, but is even more patient than I thought, are putting together a puzzle.  The puzzle has 24 large pieces - and putting each piece in seems to take four or five minutes.  But it is getting put together.  The did one yesterday morning too...The results of that one shown below.  Pooh and his friends.  It is good to hear them laugh as they explore the different possibilities for each piece of the puzzle then give thumbs up for each successful try and a high five on completion.

It is interesting to see that there is a cycle to life and love of life and the joy that is found by "working so hard for it" as mom says.  You don't want to take the puzzle apart but you want to enjoy it for several days.  And then it is time to rest and relax.

Singing and exercising makes one laugh and be happy as well.  All of these things help keep the mind sharp - well as sharp as it can be anyway.  I do believe that mom being with Lana and Jack has really helped mom be healthier.  That means that mom will be with us in better mental and physical shape than she would be living alone.  There is no way that we can appreciate the sacrifices enough - but we can try!  Social interaction is a key component of that physical and mental well being!

Well, we are preparing for the Valentine creation party.  So much of the family will be over later to help out with that.  I - in the meantime - am enjoying writing and having a great Bloody Mary!

Moments are precious - friends and family are precious - never forget that.... give hugs and smiles freely- the life you have been given is yours to live to its fullest - so do that! Live all your moments and your life to the fullest!

Spring Cleaning - Yah, I Know it Isn't Spring Yet

Why do we do what we do - things like Spring cleaning?  It has almost become an institution, especially for Baby Boomers like me (I'm not sure anyone now even knows what a Boomer is)?  Well we have started this annual tradition - but we have started way early.  Perhaps because we have company coming.  That always seems to set the stage for setting the stage.  I think we naturally want to show our best.

My mom, 91 years young, is coming to visit.  Lana and Jack are bringing her out.  It will be an awesome treat as some of her great grandkids have never met her!  Her grandkids haven't visit her much either.  I think the last time we were together was a reunion that Jacque and Howard hosted in Montezuma Iowa. It was a Collins family reunion - that's mum's side of the family.

I was giving up hope that mum would ever get out here again.  It brings tears to my eyes that she is going to be able to make the trip and to meet her Colorado legacy - for that is what we truly are.  What does this have to do with spring cleaning? Well it is an occasion that has been triggered by new life and new generations.  We just had a new grandson (Bishop) born - we have another on the way and their great grandma Fahlenkamp is coming out and will be able to see them.

Don and Yvonne Fahlenkamp Family 2006 at Collins Family Reunion

It will be so nice to have Jack and Lana here.  Many of Carolyn's siblings have stayed at our home for various reasons.  Jacque and Howard have been here - but that's pretty much it for my side of the family so it is really a wonderful thing and I'm so looking forward to it for the kids, grandkids, and for Carolyn and I - so cleaning away and sprucing up!  And, most importantly enjoying every single moment of it!

On Being Fascinated

Fascination is an interesting thing.  I've been fascinated with water, fire, wind - all of nature and nature's many wonders.  I've also been continuously fascinated by Carolyn and our relationship - even how after 49 years knowing each other the fascination still abounds.  Kinda like this picture of her and the tree frog.  She asked me to take it!  I didn't know she liked frogs so much.  I like frogs - I have a collection of frogs (not live ones silly)!  Those collectible little bobble head frogs in all sorts of situations.  (I do like eating frog legs though - one of my favorite dishes! - sorry frogs!)

And skies - our skies have so many different looks and colors - their I can stare at the skies (both night skies and day skies) for hours, dreaming and wondering and being thrilled and saddened and, well, fascinated!

Taken by Lanny from Home

The skies over Colorado can produce awesome shapes and colors - right with many different varieties of clouds layered against a morning or evening sky.  They can be  utterly thrilling to look at in wonderment.  What struck about this particular formation was that Carolyn, even though we were miles apart parked the car and took pictures of the same sky with her camera phone.  Pretty neat!

Taken by Carolyn From a Parking lot

Photo by Carolyn from Parking Lot

These are just a few of things - so much more - babies, children, elderly folks (folks much older than I am), the rich, the not so rich, the poor, slot machines video games, arcades, mountains, fishing, golf - the human body! Oh my gosh, the human body.  Isn't it amazing how wonderful a creation the human body is?

Fascination is both mental and emotional, feeling and being triggered to action, to love, to laugh, to live!  Fascination - ain't it just great!  Be fascinate with life and all its moments!  Smile at folks - and you'll be fascinated what comes in return!

Another Beautiful Day

Delivered a rocking chair to the kids.  Carolyn and I stopped at Mama Alvino's.  We haven't been there for some time, but it was well worth the stop.  We both had calzones - Carolyn had a veggie and I had a Big Mamma (small one - but still big).  They were as good as we remembered.  We've been going there for over 30 years.  The gentleman that took our money remembered delivering pizzas to our house on Tucson street. 

The temperature has been in the high 50's today.  Xavier, Bishop, and Jeremiah are back home and happy to be there.  And we are so very happy that everyone is healthy and vibrant.  I'm grateful for that and much more...

We've enjoyed the day - and hope you have enjoyed yours as well.

Bishop Aries Marcell Fahlenkamp

Bishop

A new grandson born 10PM January 7, 2014.  We now have three grandsons and 7 grand daughters and one grandchild on the way!  I admit the initials are well, BAMF - but that kid will be tough and artistic.  We are proud and we are so happy that Xavier and Jeremiah are all fine - but tired.  He sent us pictures but I have not figured out how to download or upload easily from my phone yet. I wonder if this computer has Bluetooth?Anyhow, hopefully there will be pictures later!

Kairi, Bishop, Miah

I've added these pictures the following day.  I never did figure out blue tooth, but we did get  to the hospital and took some - downloading and uploading those I can do pretty quickly. WE are blessed to have all this love in our family  So now Kairi has another little brother! She appears to be enjoying that very much. Note that broad smile.  Kairi says that baby Bishop has her eyes.

Well, it is easy for me to say but I'll say it anyway - enjoy your moments, each one is very precious and once it is gone it can not be retrieved.  Count and be grateful for the many wonderful things you have to be grateful for.  Enjoy all there is to enjoy and the is a lot!

Family Matters

Carolyn and I are blessed to have so much family on both the Martinez and Fahlenkamp sides - not to mention some of the families of spouses and ex-spouses that are still very important in our lives.  Yesterday we enjoyed an after holiday Holiday Party.  There was family and neighbors.  We enjoyed the party, the laughter - the consolation and the news.  I especially enjoyed the chili and the time we had alone with our hosts (we were early arrivals!). I'm grateful for those things.

We were up early today and already have accomplished a lot for the day.  I continue to worry and fret a bit about Mum.  My son-in-law lost his mom this past week.  He is dealing with so much - he has a great wife to help him through all this - and he has others to call on when he needs or wants to all on them.

Carolyn and I are blessed to be healthy.  We work at it and it is so worth it to be so vital and vibrant and enjoying life as much as we do.  I do note that I tend to "not connect" with folks a lot - I often think it has something to do with the "fear of loss"!  Connecting can be a risk in that sense.  Maybe, just maybe, I need to take more risks and connect more with people.

I realize that I don't participate in what you would call "social sports" - like bowling- and perhaps that is the fear of connection and loss.  Golf is a sport, but not what I call a "social sport".  The lunches after golf with the Monday gang are social, but even there, I don't feel a part of the social set that is present.  Sometimes I feel I'm there because I fill out a foursome.

I think I'm a bit of a recluse!  Could it be?  I'll have to contemplate that - and a whole lot of other things!  Enjoy your family of families and all the moments you have - the good, the bad, and ..... well you know the rest!

My First 2014 Blog --- of course!

Well, it has been a very quiet day.  Carolyn and I crashed at about 00:15 - the kids, well, they crashed when they crashed.  The boys didn't get up until about 11AM, Kairi was up earlier and busied herself with the Galaxy tablet.  I played games and waited for breakfast time which really turned out to be lunch time.

I've made no resolutions, promises or commitments - makes things easier.  Carolyn has had a busy day - me I was mostly lazy - well not mostly - I was lazy! So - not much else to say - nothing else. Have a great year!

My Last Blog of 2013

It has been a great year - lots of travel, fishing, golf, gaming, grandkids, kids, family and much more!  The Martinez Family Reunion was held in July - great turn out.  Met some more of our neighbors.  Chad has become a Real Estate Broker Associate - Autumn graduated from culinary school - Haley is taking honors in school, Brooke made the All American Cheerleading Squad.  Chad and Xavier became engaged and have a child due on or about the sixth of January.  Kindle and Drew are having a baby - these are just a few of the wonderful events that have occurred this year! Oh, yah, Wolfgang has a new girl friend after about 3 years with Sarah.  We met Casey during the cookie decorating. Kairi introduced us to the card game Phase 10 - it is good to be playing cards again.  Trenton and Wolfgang went to Canada with me in July great trip with the grandsons.  Wendfal continues to be a great personal trainer! Jeremiah lost his job at Zumies and got a job at Tillies.  Heather and Eric and their clean continue to be happy and joyful - and have 5 exuberant and talented children. Can't wait to get sons and their sons and dads up there for a wonderful trip. Fished Table Rock Lake - with a guide - never had a guide before - well, Lana Babes has always been my Press Lake guide.  Carolyn continues to grow, learn, explore and attend UFO conferences whilst I hang out at Big Cedar Lodge or elsewhere. /and how could I forget the Class of 63 50th reunion for Montezuma High School. And we celebrated family for the holidays at Dora's.

I also lost my youngest brother this year - Lewis James Fahlenkamp - he died of Chicken Pox - his immune system was wrecked from Chemo treatments for cancer - I did get to take him fishing at Jacque's pond a few months before he passed.  He was named after mother's two brothers.  James (Uncle Jimmy) and Mum are the only two surviving of six children of my grandma and grampa Collins. Mum is doing okay - she turned 91 this year.

I'm sure much more has happened, but these are the things that stick in my mind at the moment and I tend to be in the moment.  I know I've missed some things.  Ah well!

I don't make New Year Resolutions, but I do set goals. I've set and documented a couple....  I hope you had a fabulous 2013 and are looking forward to a wonderful 2014.  Oh yah, I found a few great new inexpensive wines!!!!

The Picture You Wished You'd Never Seen- Really, Don't Look Now - You'll Be Sorry!

The story follows the headline, and the picture is far down the page.  It is the day after Christmas, a most blessed and wonderful Christmas season.  We have two new grandchildren on the way.  Somehow grandchildren are a very special blessing.  Partly, I think, because the kids see value in having kids - which means we brought them up well and we are so happy to be able to say that.

We took down a lot of the Christmas decorations today.  The indoors is done we just have to store all the boxes and trees for Christmas that will come in about 365 days.  We have the Martinez family Christmas party on Saturday.  I could say a few things about that, but those thoughts are better saved for another day.

Today's grateful list:  1) I'm grateful for a very attractive, attentive, active, awesome wife!  Carolyn is such a special woman! 2) I'm grateful for salmon patties.  A lot of folks don't like canned salmon... but, I gotta say I do love a good salmon patty.  3)  I'm grateful for the sound of the fish pond - and yes, there are still three fish living in there - even through the winter.  It has been frozen over twice already this year, but the bubbler and the pond heater keep a goodly portion of it ice free.  4) I'm grateful for the spacious home that we have to share-though we are having discussions concerning the need for all of this space!  5) I'm grateful for my health and I will very much continue to maintain my health and a very healthy life style!

And, here is the picture from the headline!

Yup, I enjoy a great bubble bath from time to time - TMI - Oh well, I told you not to look!

When is Christmas - How long do I have to wait!

Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.  Tonight is one of those nights where you can't do w  hat you wanna do! We had guests and we had an awesome surprise... it'll have to wait!

Kindle and Drew were over this evening.... Kindle is pregnant - awesome!!!!!!!!!!!! Really, really, really awesome!  Congratulations Kindle and Drew and Lanny and Carolyn (proud grandparents)....Nuff said!